Lately, God has been convicting me of a lot of things. With school over, summer in full swing, and life in a tangle, this is the time of year where distractions just pile onto me and I have a really hard time figuring out how to get passed it all. I mean, I’ve set all these goals and it’s been a challenge just getting three done… life is crazy! Throw in my grandmother’s month-long visit and I and my “2018 summer bucket list” are basically screwed. But thank God for the Holy Spirit, because, well, he’s been annoying. But like, in a good way.
The Lord has been convicting me about my very unprepared position for spiritual warfare.
I mean, the battle is here. Sin has been occupying this earth for a few years now (more like a few thousand), and it’s no secret that the Devil is out to eat our souls. Literally, Christians have been fighting this war since the Fall and it hasn’t lightened up since then. If anything, it’s gotten far worse. But what’s great about God is that he hasn’t left us alone to take down the bad guy using our own swords and shields; he’s given us the tools, the gadgets, the right kind of armor to be able to combat the Devil and his minions and win this fight.
We’re just too distracted with our plans for life to actually put on the armor.
I’m ashamed to admit that I am a lazy prayer warrior. I’m like, the laziest on the squad. I wake up in the morning, turn on my phone, immediately put music on, and literally read the “verse of the day” on the Bible app, then scroll through Pinterest for like the rest of the time I’m waiting for my sister to get out of the shower. LITERALLY. I’m not proud of that!
As a Christian, I need to be constantly hungry and thirsty for communion with my God. I need to hunger for his Word and hunger for his presence. But instead, I’m too busy looking at puppy pictures and unrealistic hair goals and memes that caption my life (while they’re very relatable, they are slowly taking over the media. Next target: the world). And I call myself a Child of God, I actually believe that that is living for God. Like, I read my Bible DUH! I’m good for the day. A little intake of His Words and I’m set for the rest of the week.
That’s like picking up a spoon and saying, “Okay, Satan, I’m ready to take you down, big guy!”
I am so sick and tired of this kind of walk. I’m tired of being a lazy Christian. I want to be a true warrior in the King’s army! I want to give my hands, my feet, my mouth, my heart, my soul, and my life to God and let Him carry it all through life and guide me so that all I do and say and think and feel is for His glory and the salvation of others. I want to be completely dependant on Him for all my needs, all my dreams. It’s so easy to get caught up in the world’s ideas of life and living and loving. Like, it’s all so appealing, and it’s way easier to do than to follow God’s way. I mean seriously. The self-love club sounds so amazing, especially when there’s drama with friends or family. “You need to love yourself before you can love anybody else.”
If you allow yourself to be influenced by the world… you’re gonna be influenced by the world.
Satan was an appealing angel, the most appealing angel in fact. But he knew it too and let pride get in the way, and now we’re struggling with the same sin all these years later as if we haven’t learned from past ancestors. Which is stupid when you think about it, like are we this dumb? Seriously? Uhhhh yeah, we are. That’s why we need Jesus and that’s why he gives us grace so that we can overcome the sin of pride and self-love in a world that says that self-love is the greatest love. The greatest love cannot be procured by man, no matter how hard we try or how much we give of ourselves.
God said we need to empty ourselves of us so that He can fill us with Him, which is hard because we think we’re pretty great and we think we’re all this. Well, news flash: we’re actually are dirtbags with lipstick on. Sorry not sorry for bursting your bubble.
What I’m trying to get at is that it’s gonna take a lot more than what we think to actually live a life according to God’s will. Actually, it’s gonna cost a lot too. We think we can just get by with a little bit of Bible reading, saying grace before every meal, and posting Bible verses on social media? Well, think again wise-guy because that’s child play compared to what we need to do to face the battle before us.
If we are seriously pursuing a life that is lived for God and the salvation of others, we need to really examine our motives for everything we’re doing right now. Because hey, we’re humans in a worldly society, we’re gonna have a lot of garbage and baggage and distractions. We have a mission to do, so enough of this self-care/self-love dung and more seeking the Lord. We need to be light and fishers of men, but we sure as guac better be following God’s terms and his signals, or we’re leading these people down the wrong road and damning them to Hell and that’s accomplishing the complete opposite of what we’re supposed to be doing.
The Lord is always good. He will provide us with what we need to fight our demons, we just have to ask. Sometimes his answers aren’t what we want to hear, but if we are really serious about our relationship with him, then we are going to have to lay down what we are comfortable with doing and follow his lead. Because honey, once you begin a life for the Lord, things are going to get uncomfortable, so just get used to it. It’ll be a pain some days, but you know what? When God calls you his good and faithful servant, all those days will completely vanish and all you’ll know is that you followed the Lord and he is so proud of you… and can you imagine the smile on his face? Incredible.
Arm yourself with the Word of the Lord (Psalm 1:2, 1 John 2:5, ), pray without ceasing (Thessalonians 5:17, Colossians 4:2), seek the Lord in all things (1 Chronicles 16:11, Isaiah 55:6), and you will never fight a losing battle.
“For by thee I have run through a troop: by my God have I leaped over a wall.
As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all them that trust him.
For who is God, save the Lord? and who is our rock, save our God?
God is my strength and power: and he maketh my way perfect.
He maketh my feet like hinds feet: and sets me upon my high places.
He teacheth my hands to war so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms.
Thou hast also given me a shield of thy salvation: and thy gentleness hath made me great.”
~2 Samuel 22:30-37~